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Believe me there has come a time in my life when I thought I could never do these things that I now must do for my J. I have recognized my inner strength. I think it's wonderful to look back and see all that I have been able to handle and push through. This is not an easy journey. Having a "normal" healthy child would be much easier, but I often have to ask myself "would I have it any other way?" I am so proud of the woman I've become, the knowledge I've obtained, and the close relationships I have made with my children and again with my husband. I am not the same person I was 3 years ago. I have learned to stand up to doctors, insurance companies and so called friends, who dropped me when I needed them most. I have learned to listen and to pray, to be respectful and secure. I have found amazing friends who I can relate and share my feelings with. I have become so much more awear of the special needs in my community and have been given the opportunity to share what I know with families just starting out on this path. I'm not sure how they find me but I love to share and inspire newbies. I am so grateful for all that I have been blessed with. Some might look at me and think what have you been blessed with? In their eyes they may only be looking for worldly objects which I do not posses, but if they would look harder they would see these amazing blessings and small miracles that I get to enjoy every day.