just a post

I wish I had something brilliant to blog about but I don't. I'm settling for random thoughts tonight.

Would you believe my throat hurts? After all that sickness over Christmas, I thought for sure I have earned a few months of sick free-ness. The pain is getting unbearable so tomorrow I shall call my doc. I started an antibiotic but nothing has changed so now doubting it's strep like I thought...

My "New Years Resolution" for 2011 was to get organized in a "balls to the wall" kind of way. I started this weekend and it was harder then I thought it would be. Needless to say, I got as far as declothing Jonah's closet and throwing out UN-needed medical stuff. This left me with a room full of toy pieces, therapy toys, ride on toys and boxes of medical stuff. You should have seen it! My hubs walked in and first thing out of his mouth was "I thought you were cleaning his room?" ...I leaned forward while sitting in the midst of all of this stuff and swung the door closed. ;)

School starts back up tomorrow for me. I am super excited about my Psychology class but getting anxious about the other...Math. Ugh, I havent even finished reading the syllabus and I'm doubting my capability's. I'm trying to stay positive...

Ok that was a lie.

I am still upset about J's urology appointment and will be calling back up to the same urologist to get some unasked questions answered. I'm bothered that this bummer feeling has haunted me this entire weekend. Then I will call J's ped to get a referral to someone new.

I live in an old house. This was our first house purchase as newly weds! I was 23 when we bought it and it was an exciting "first home!" If only I knew this would be the house we would be raising 2 kids in I would have waited until we found a more appropriate house as this one is too small, and was set up for a more creative-fix it your self-type of couple. We are not that couple. We have much knowledge of what we need to do, and slowly we hope to get it all in order and done so that in the next few years we will be able to perhaps sale and buy again.

Newest obsession: Move over Grey's I'm a lovin' The Real House Wives of Beverly Hills! Haha... I know right?

Urology~ bla bla bla

Whoa, what a week! All week I have been getting up at 5am to start Jonah's meds and then filled in at my old place of work, then ran here, there and everywhere to take kiddos to school, Therapy and appointments. I have not made it into bed before 11pm I'm beat! It has been a busy week for me but it doesn't stop there... next week school starts back up for Spring semester. I am going to enjoy this weekend even if I have to squeeze every ounce of fun out of it!

Jonah had an appointment with Urology...These doctors are so strange and are becoming more useless and a waste of time. I don't understand why I can't get a doc who will just take the time to listen and come up with some kind of idea of what's going on with Jonah and his priapism. We wasted in the waiting room longer then the doctor spent time with Jonah. She didn't ask any questions or even sound interested. She was super quick to send us into her assistant's office where there she wrote a script for Once again... VIAGRA. I told her that I was unable to pick up that prescription due to insurance issues, but she sent it with me anyways and said that someone from the office would call me before the day was over to give me the A-Okay to head to the PCMC Pharmacy to pick it up. Well, You guessed it no phone call. When Jonah was in house at the hospital he had a great urologist who seemed super excited about this new challenge. I want that Dr back! I believe his name was Dr. Wallace. (if you know this Dr please let me know if he See's patients - out patient)


Hope everyone is well and ready for Saturday!

Christmas Miracles

For jounaling puposes I have to include this drama filled entry.

We left California the day after Christmas. Bright and early as I didn't want to be driving in the dark and we had a long 14 hr drive ahead of us. Isaac strapped the lugage to the roof racks and smashed every toy Santa had brought in the back of the car. Our family left my mom's house around 4:30am. By 7am I was so tired and wished we stayed in bed a little longer. We pulled over at a truck stop right outside Paso Robles Ca. I slept while Isaac and the kids walked the dog and ran around to get the wiggles out. After an hour, everyone piled back into the car and we headed down to Barstow where we would fill the tank and have some run around time. We pulled into the gas station, the first one right off the freeway, Isaac jumped out and headed for the bathroom while I was fighting with the gas pump to work. (FYI: in Cali the pump needs to be firmly pushed into the gas tank to trigger the gas flow) I didn't get that figured out so I assumed that the pump was broken so we would just get gas across the street. When Isaac jumped back into the loaded down mini SUV he said that we were down one bag. "WHAT??" I freeked. As of course it was MY brand new luggage bag with all of MY clothes, MY makeup, MY shoes, MY Christmas gifts. I was pissed, and seriously could have divorced my husband right there in the middle of the desert in Barstow California. Yes, I cried. I called my mom, cause that's what I do when I can't think streight. She kinda calmed me down but I was still angry... Why is it always ME?? Why could'nt Isaac's stuff fly off the roof rack?? He has tons of clothes at home and doesn't own any CJ Banks clothing!

We back tracked 3 hours one way and 3 hours back only to return to Barstow, once again with no luggage. 6 hours added onto our trip for nothing. We stoped at that same gas station the one right off the freeway to fill up. This time Morgan and I leaped for the bathrooms and Isaac pumped gas. When Morg and I came out we switched places with Isaac. A Marine Chaplin approached me. He had been watching Jonah hooked up to his oxygen and recieving a tube feeding. The Marine asked if he could pray for my son. Cought off guard, and worried he had heard me yelling as we pulled in, I eagerly said yes, that he could pray for him. (When I said that I was thinking he would do a prayer roll, or pray in his car...) He reached in though Jonah's window asked for his name and prayed that Jonah will have a prosperus life and that he (Jonah) would be able to bless many through his life. It was one of the most beautiful prayers I had ever heard. When the Marine was through praying he held Jonah's hand and said that he would see him again. It was so strange and yet so amazing. I am forever grateful to that young Chaplin. I was still devistated that all my stuff was somewhere in someones posetion, but a calmness came over me as all that I had lost was just stuff. We drove a long 23 hours mostly in silence because everyone was afraid of the wrath of mommy. I Everything was replaceable. I had a few flareups of disappointment and why me's, but I let the husband and kiddos believe I was still upset so I didn't have to listen to fighting, singing or are we there yet?

Afew days ago, during dinner, we heard a knock at the door. Isaac got up from the table to answer the door. Know one was there. I would like to say that when he opened the door my luggage was sitting on the front porch but that was not the case. Insrtead an envelope layed on the door mat. When he opened it he saw that inside the envelope was a card with nothing written and inside that card was a stack of $20 bills.

I am so blessed, MY family is so blessed. I am so grateful to have many people in my life who are mindful of my beautiful family. I have only shared the first story with a few others, so I know that the person/people who left that envelope of money probly didn't know that I had lost most of my clothes. I am grateful for Christmas miracles. I am grateful for those who are selfless. I am grateful for the example that this act has taught my children.

Hope this new year brings many opportunities for my family to pay it forward.

A Mom Talks with the Director of Special Education

Okay my special needs mom's, you know this is funny!

Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas friends. Christmas has always been my most favorite Holiday. But this year has been amazing. I have lots to be thankful for, and as I sat on the floor playing my 4Th game of operation with my kids I embraced all of those blessings. I am grateful for my family. I am grateful for the opportunity to be here in California and celebrate this wonderful day with my family, and the family that lives in the area.

Last night we went up to the Santa Cruz mountains and had a wonderful dinner with Isaac's father and his new wife Kristy. Earlier we traveled to my grandparents house to have an afternoon full of food, laughter and memories. There were five generations in one room. How special is that?

Jonah has been doing well here, but still on oxygen. We have him on intermittently due to his fluctuating oxygen needs. I have seen his lips go blue a few times this morning so I know something is going on. Tomorrow we will be traveling 14 hours back to Utah. I feel safe there knowing that Jonah has an amazing doctor that always makes time to see him if needed.

Morgan is in 7Th heaven as Santa brought her everything her little 4 year old heart desired, but Mommy & Daddy took full credit for the lady bug pillow pet!!!

Our vacation has been long, due to all the illness my little family has been hit with in such a short amount of time. We were unable to do alot of things that we had planned, but I guess next time when we are out here we will have other opportunities.

I hope that you all have a very Merry Christmas!

Much love from our family to yours!

My Song

on the first month of the new year my true love gave to me, a house hold where everyone was healthy!

On the second month of the new year my true love gave to me, a son who was in the ER 4 times by the end of Feb-u-ary!

On the third month of the new year my true love gave to me, My beautiful little Morgan who was no longer 3!

On the fourth month of the new year my true love gave to me, A mini vacation to the S. C. (Santa Cruz, CA)

On the fifth month of the new year my true love gave to me, past memories of his loving Grammy. (Who we miss so much)

On the sixth month of the new year my true love gave to me, summer fun at the pool which made us all happy

ON THE SEVENTH MONTH OF THE new year my true love gave to me, Frustrations up at PCMC! (ok, so it wasn't his fault!)

On the eighth month of the new year my true love gave to me, Our first date night since Jonah's diagnos-y!

On the ninth month of the new year my true love gave to me, Something to write about for my 200Th post on my blog-gy!

On the tenth month of the new year my true love gave to me, a wonderful harvest from our gardening!

On the eleventh month of the new year my true love gave to me Morgan winning all of us at the wii!

On the twelfth month of the new year my true love gave to me, a whole week spent with the family in Cali!!!


MERRY CHRISTMAS to all our friends and Family!

10 days people

Jonah is doing tons better from his little episode Monday. Though there has been some issues with secretions or "plugs" he has been able to clear them on his own with a good strong cough. I have been doing meds around the clock and will continue to do so till he is on his base line of oxygen needs. His energy level is back up but he is still a wee bit pale, but... today Jonah started eating by mouth, and we love to see that!

I have been running crazy today! I can't believe Christmas is just 10 days away, so much to do before then. I'm wondering if I stop, breath and really really think hard if I truly believe... Will Santa just take care of it all??? I finally made it to Costco to get our Christmas cards printed off, and they will be ready and picked up tomorrow. I asked for the envelopes so that I could address them all tonight.

We are going to be heading back to California for Christmas and Morgan is elated! She loves going to California for many reasons but her favorite one would be because she gets SPOILED rotten by grandparents due to the fact she is the only girl on both side of the family. Unfortunately we will be driving. This way we can drive out the O's for Mr.J and he will have it when we go to Cali though out 2011.

Oh what fun it is to ride in a one horse open sleigh! ...Or ambulance

My eyes feel like they are buldging out of my head, my nose is dripping like a faucet and I can't stop sneezing. I don't feel good. I had a final in my math class that I missed and now Im stressing that my profesor is going to give me an incomplete because I was a no- show.

Why was I a no-show???

My Jonah was a sick kid today and was ambulanced up to the children's hospital from his pediatritians office.

His ped just called me. How sweet is that? It's like 9:00pm! She just informed me that his results from the VRP are back and indeed he has Influenza A or H1N1... We will need to wait 48 hours to see what the cultures are. Fun!

I am beat so Im headed off to bed, I am on med duty every 3 hours through the night to help nurse this kid back to health. Nothing worse then having a sick child. I love him so so so much.

statistics

Since January of 2010

Morgan has grown 3in (putting her at 50th % on the chart..up 25% from Jan)

Jonah has grown 2in (putting him at 32in long... still not on the chart)

Morgan has gained 5 lbs (sitting pretty on the 75% mark. Following her curve to a T!)

Jonah has gained 3 lbs (weighing in at 28 lbs!)


We had an appointment today and I got the low down. Morgan is very sick. Sick kids are never fun, however I seem to funtion better as a nurse when Jonah is sick, and get super nervous when Its Morgan who is sick. I just don't know how the rules for a healthy, sick child. When is the temp to high? What do I do with her? Is letting her just lay on my bed and watch TV till her eyes roll back ok? Is 7up good for every illness or just stomach issues?

I'm Cluless!Seriously folks, CLUELESS!

time to Blog

I have been neglecting my blog. I guess time is just getting away. I have so much going on. I have to remember to keep my blog up as it is a journal of my thoughts, memories, sane and insane times of my life.

Jonah's med schedule is crazy but I am fearful that if I don't keep up with it he will be hospitalized again with no notice. The air quality has been horrible in Salt Lake. I have been doing my best to keep him inside and this past weekend we escaped to Santa Cruz Ca to visit the grandparents. He seemed to be doing well, but today as I dropped him off to the school bus I noticed his top lip was grey-ish. Upped his oxygen and he was good to go.

Yesterday Morgan and I went to the American Red Cross so I could donate blood. She was disgusted to say the least. Her little head could not wrap around the idea of sharing blood. She's so funny. Morgan has also been doing such a great job in school. When she writes her name you can really read it and see that she wrote Morgan. She is also singing lot's of song's in Spanish thanks to her favorite singer, Dr.Jean!

I have finals on Monday. Eeek! I'm not ready. I guess I will spend Lot's of time studying this weekend. I guess instead of trying to save some money by grooming my dog myself, I should have been practicing crazy algebra problems.